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Rain Drops Run Black by TristinGDOE, literature

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Rain Drops Run Black

They hit your face, Rivers of charcoal run like tears. Forgetting your place, Run like the child, from your fears. Never know what love could've been. Streaming thoughts of where your end would begin. Screaming still my heart would burst, Knowing now even then we were cursed. We're the one's who woke to find the nightmares came true. When back then it was just me and you. Now its all arguments and never good enough. Never believing when they said it was going to be tough. Now we're stuck. In this rainslicked muddy rut. This hole filling up as you turn your back, With the inky forgotten specters of these rain drops running black

Snowflakes and Streetlights by TristinGDOE, literature

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Snowflakes and Streetlights

Snowflakes and Streetlights Moonlight creeps through heavy sky, A darkening beauty that would lead you to cry. No two flakes are alike falling around me, These memories of times together running free. Missing the thoughts of you, Tired and sleepless, I skate and think of things we'ld do. I flash back to dark woods we shared, The trees would glow with the love we dared. Then quickly there was a kiss, My home run in a life of hit or miss. Another thought of our past, so far away. Yet these Autumn nights seem like yesturday. Your black trench, my jumpsuit, a kiss before the scare. Though I make mistakes, you never failed to care.

Crude by TristinGDOE, literature

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Crude

The falling acid rain Washes away the rusted oil stains. The blackest tears of darkened crude, Fall again to set the mood. A darkened time, Of the humblest beliggerence in this shrine. This forbidden penance of a broken mind. Computing the error, Reading the lines. Feeling the flaws in this perfection of rhyme. The system failure has shut down the hard drive. Running on backup you lose the will to survive. the fight to fight for this life. Meaningless hope glimmers at the edge of the knife. Bladed ignorance shines with the hatred of hope in the lovers eye. Burning this cold intense gaze, Filing your mind with frost as the tear

No More... by TristinGDOE, literature

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No More...

The ashes and cinders, from the indifferent firestorm overhead, Light upon the already broken wings of the dragonfly crushed in it's prime. It cradled these thoughts while waiting listlessly for the eager conflagration already licking it's lips at the thought of another hapless being scorned from existance by the merry blade of life. No more....No more shall I let my heart dangle from these puppet strings that quiver in anticipation of the horrid thoughts plucking until the strings finally break leaving just the one that would cause the heart to hang and suffocate on it's own emotion.No longer shall every footfall on this journey of life tha

Suicide Cell by TristinGDOE, literature

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Suicide Cell

Deaths cage, razor blade hopes. Trapped by rhythms stabbing notes. It's the end, twenty years young. Cruel hearts puppets, tears tast silence on your tongue. Know this violent stain red to light your way. The reapers twisted play thing until the day. The day you taste the sickly sweet soil. Filling your hollow eyes with cocaine dreams. Alcohol burns your way with fire minds. Wreathed in heartless smoke from a cigarette. Lit with desire snuffed in envious mind. Till the roots die cut off by razor blade hopes. Deaths cage by your own hand. Fell the knife edge of hell. Only to love brick by brick, Your suicide cell.

Paint me bloody... by TristinGDOE, literature

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Paint me bloody...

Crimson beauty of nothingness, Paint cold pale glances. Turned blindly to the foul taste of delicate words. The silence drips razor spirals. Killing hearts voice. I feel brush stokes paint bleeding minds. Dreaming of hopes lost in the executioners eyes. Striking happily this rape scarring truth. Then hands fall as eyes brutal discourse. Branching evil with closed minded whispers loveless. Paint me bloody for all I've tasted of life. Bathed forever cold non-existent bliss.

Slate by TristinGDOE, literature

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Slate

This cold stone my only escape, Feel this weathered rock. Like the cold laughter of rape. They scoff at my life feelining no scar, They've seen many like me, Both near and far. This grey lifeless mass, Cradles my tear indifferently, Spilling it listlessly back to earth. No emotion shown, no sadness, no mirth, Jutting up into the endless expanse of time, Knowing no repremand, no fear of fates rhyme.

Forbidden fruit by TristinGDOE, literature

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Forbidden fruit

I see you shine in spite, Burning in your gaze. Forever heart and mind fight. Never to love, Wretched soul. Forbidden fruit growes farther. Never see me, lusting for fire. Never feel free, Paralyzed with the heated lust and desire. Find anouther forgotten lover. This forbidden fruit growes for no other. Will you burn heaven to ash, Like comet scorching sky? Until the fiery crash, Of beauty behind your eyes. Live for this, Know my love. Lest the sun and stars, Leave the sky above. Forbidden fruit grows old, Then falls striking the Earth, Like the lost feather of a pure white dove...

Frost by TristinGDOE, literature

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Frost

Ice blue flame behind my eyes. Cold numbness at my fingertips, Chest burning with pride. The winter rains down upon me, Frost caressing my lips, Icey quicksilver from my face drips. Burning holes in my flesh, Right down to the core of me. Hardening my heart, My anger burns free. It bursts forth in blazing blue glory. Extinguishing all and itself, Ending the story. A tale for all ages, This never ending sonnet, Of this icey chilled phoenix that rose again. This creature burning with cold passion, Engulfing this hapless being without the slightest sound. The silence over powering this wretched hearts cry. This twisted logic o

Poetry of Internal Exile by TristinGDOE, literature

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Poetry of Internal Exile

What do I see before me? A desolate landscape, Barren to the all-seeing eye. A far away scream splits the night. Yet I wonder: Was it far? Or did it come from my own barest breast? Could a scream from within the darkness only be an echo? Is it the echo of a scream from within a darker soul ensconced in this hollow being? Could I resonate these cries? I find the answer as tangible as the words on this page. Or even more so as the sword I have chosedn to make these crude marks. Yes a right fine blade I have chosen to carve out these wicked runes, Speaking of the unnerving exile of the unruly mind such as guides this hand to it's mar

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Shivering Shadow by TristinGDOE, literature

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Shivering Shadow

This I know, if shadows hold true, That forever and always will burn my love for you. Hopeless my heart, your wicked arrow strikes. Yet when Im without my heart and mind fights. A cool breeze stirs me, my mind shudders at the thought. In a net of love and quicksilver my bleeding heart is caught. A butterfly is caught in my hearts net, I feel it struggle. Then i feel myself quiver as emotions burn and bubble. Whats this feeling deep inside? Cold and heartless yet burning while Ive cried? My tears consumed by darkness, fall sounlessly to the ground. I've buried all my love, yet in your love my heart drowned. Impenatrable fortress, w

Choices by TristinGDOE, literature

I Hope by TristinGDOE, literature

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I Hope

I hope you know they love you. I hope you see your beauty. I hope you know your limit. I hope you know they do too. I hope you realize the people around you. I hope to feel the influence from you. I hope that you grow in mind through this pain. I hope that now youve lost all you can do is gain. I hope that after this you gentle dispositions remain. I hope you know how important you are. your life can only get better after youve made it this far. I hope you and i become closer friends. And I hope in the near future your tribulation ends. But you know what? Hopes may be dreams. And not all dreams come true. Yet I wnat you to rem

Windows to the Hearts Darkside by TristinGDOE, literature

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Windows to the Hearts Darkside

No hope,no life. No love,all stife. I' ve longed for this, but now I see. That while away from you you dont trust me. If there's no trust is there relationship? My eyes strain to focus as the words move in your lips. Whats wrong? Have I betrayed you? I've done all possible to be true. If its not enough for this to work, Then whats the point? To prolong the pain? What do you stand to gain? I trusted you and stood strong. Why can't you do the same? I was her friend don't you believe me? This time I won't trust myself with you. Why can't you believe I'm true? This just keeps getting harder and harder. And I don't know hwere all

Social Sovereinty by TristinGDOE, literature

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Social Sovereinty

The day to day heirarcky becomes a break into ordinary. Contained within the power to control others. While losing control of themselves. You cant rule me, your not my fate. You can't fool me, I see your hate. It burns your heart to see me smile. The thoughts in your head turn sicker and vile. You cant force me, I'll never bear your scars. I'll just live my life as fortold in the stars. You cut me down but I'll get back up. I've already broken free of this social rut. You've broken others many before me. But I won't let you win. I've fought you once and now you should see, That in your persuit of social sovereinty, All you do i

Innocence Hybrid by TristinGDOE, literature

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Innocence Hybrid

A union of good and bad. My mortality is given but with restiction. I'll cut myself off, I'm lost as stated in my social depiction. Cold, calculated, loving and deadly. I've waited to end this, Please god take me I'm ready! I can't do this alone, I'm scarred and forlorn. The minority are whores in this political porn. Hopes I've felt, blows I've dealt. Striking out this cornered beast fights. The right to love sticken from my "God" given rights. The darknes is comforting, While light is bold and wrong. This love is like lightning, Sticking then gone. I've found I can't fight this, hide, or run. So now I sit, the innocence of my

Lifeless by TristinGDOE, literature

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Lifeless

My heart although lifeless still beats on. My mind although thoughtless knows its wrong. Darkness all over, all ist still and lifeless. The motion of my hand is so foreign. Although I move it seems I'm not there. Watching from far away. As I behold the gruesome sight. I hear in the distance my parents start to fight. It pulles me back. This can't be right. I'm leaving now. For tonight my life ends its fight. the door suddenly opens, I finish my task. He tries to save me, my life flashes past. He tries all in vain, I've chosen my fate. By the time you read this it'll be too late!

Crossfire by TristinGDOE, literature

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Crossfire

I'm caught in the crossfire, I hear the bleeding in my voice. Told you this would happen I know, Yet the only words that come to mind are I told you so. I felt this in my gut, this feeling I know all to well. When I rise up I unite with mother earth, As I burst forth from Hell. This graceful misfortune, This decaying decadence. Of the two best friends giving this painful imputent pennence. But still I rise forth only to be all but broken again. Caught in the middle, forced to choose between friends. Now I've made my choice I'll leave them all behind! Moving foward to finally shed this decaying earthly shrine. I'm caught in the cr

I'll Never Love Again by TristinGDOE, literature

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I'll Never Love Again

I'm not allowed to love,this I've found. This sed of hatred planted in my heart like the cold stoney ground. My heart then cracks to expose this plant of death. I grin and laugh in deaths rancid inviting breath. "I'll never love again" are the thoughts that come to mind. I've buried all emotion, no map to help you find. My hatred makes me laugh,your happiness makes me cry. Because I know it'll end all to soon. And you'll feel my dispair till the day that you die. While this hope seems inviting in the end it's all gone. I'll never love again, the battles won and lost. I'm to endure this pain from this day to last. So I'm wrong I wi

Celestial Beginning by TristinGDOE, literature

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Celestial Beginning

On this night of the silver moon, I begin to feel impending doom. All hope is lost, but while here I don't care. I've given up all hope, My emotinal tap has run bare. Thowing caution to the wind, While fighting the demons within. Baring my soul, I seach for my fate. Buried and rithing in these feelings of hate. This hatred so true yet born of uncertainty. We're left all of these scars for all of eternity. But while left in the wake of fighting these demons, I still search in vain for love trues true meaning. Of these yet born from the ashes of our demons, I'm born with new life to find my celestial beginnings.

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Butterfly by ShadowRayne85, literature

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Butterfly

She use to be quiet and reserved Lost to herself , Her mind unnerved Things once she teasured Now they seem unmeasured A new page of live has turned The mistakes of her past bridges had burned Now through her social disgraces Smilng through These new faces A mask she uses to hide her sorrow To be removed some distant marrow Mistakes replaced in her new life Similar to those in common strife A butterfly hidden in her Rose If she ever was happy the memory froze Time passes and she is still not here We all make mistakes yet we still fear Things are not what they seem Its time for her to follow her dream She can lift herself h

The Outcome by hitsfrznglass, literature

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The Outcome

To think for my happiness brings you only sorrow, And leaves you wishing to have it over tomorrow Tears me up all the more on the inside Feels like all I have done to you is lied Causing my friend unbearable pain Is racking at my already ill-wrought brain Tears are constantly flowing, never ebbing For me, this trauma in never letting Never letting me have one moment's peace nor calm Tears fall over the smears of blood across my palm Turning the serpentine, crimson rivers into pink waterfalls And still all I hear are your heart's beckoning calls My demise is all I can imagine, I wish I was long gone It is like dying with the cresc

Freedom by Mikos-Rhapsody, literature

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Freedom

The darkness surrounding her, sends her into a panic, it's happened, what she fears. She runs, down corridoors and halls, trying to get free, but the doorways are blocked by her peers. Nobody seems to care, they all laught, as she collapses in a corner in tears. Curling tightly around herself, she blocked out the noise, the hurt, and stayed there for years. Until, one day, she dared to looked up, the doors and people were gone, and stood before her one. She looked up at him, flinching and trying to disapear into the corner as he reached out, perhaps to shun. He smiled gently, and knelt, "it's okay," he whispered, "i won't hurt

Death is There by rumiko666, literature

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Death is There

Why do people fear death, when it's everywhere you look? It can come in the day, and leave with the soul of someones he took. Or it can attack at night, steal life away like a masked crook. Just to watch you and what you do, just watch your emotions toil and cook. I, myself, have once lost a very close loved one. Somebody I shouldn't have had to begin with, I lost my son. I was raped at the age of fifteen, isn't that just so much fun? When his death came, two monthes later, the grief sitting on my heart seemed to weigh a ton. Death is everywhere, even for me. But me? My life's is yet, not done.

Miko....? by rumiko666, literature

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Miko....?

Miko, what sadness I see, hidden deep in your eyes. You can see through the shield? To the pain and the lies? Miko, your teeth are so sharp and shiny. Yes, and coated in blood from the problems that bind me. Miko, your ears...why do they burn as if with crimson flame? Oh, they've just heard the lies pointed at me, and the blame. Miko, your heart...I can hear how it weeps. Aye...it responds to all the pain and hurt that through it sweeps. Miko, your wrists... why do they bleed? For all the help I don't get, for the help and love I need. Miko, your breath, why is it starting to slow? Because I'm not

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No More... by TristinGDOE, literature

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No More...

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Current Residence: The Black Hole
Favourite genre of music: Any
Favourite photographer: Krazy krissy
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: none i'm too poor
Wallpaper of choice: none
Skin of choice: my own
Favourite cartoon character: Alfons and Ed(FMA); STEWIE!!!
Personal Quote: death doesnt happen suddenly we fall on death in degrees. so in a way we die alittle every day.

Favourite Visual Artist

Tujima666

Favourite Movies

The Crow, 300

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Umbra within/Blue October

Favourite Writers

Tujima and Margaret Wies

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ps2

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my pencile and my voice

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music and Dragonlance

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TristinGDOE

May 17, 2006

Fake Friends

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This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own journal. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are...repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted...don't reply...just copy and paste this in a new journal as "Fake Friends"

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TristinGDOE

May 6, 2006

Over

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The streak is over!!!!! 11 months without any*wink wink*. Just leave it at that.

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TristinGDOE

Apr 29, 2006

Alright...

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Whats up all long time no see. Now that I've got a steady internet source I've decided to start posting again. The only problem is that I now have to unpack to find my new poems and songs. That and I'm really tired of reading that one journal entry I've had since '03 so I figured I'd sub a new one. Later all..

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Deviantgirl12

Oct 30, 2008

Hey man, what's up? It's Mary

I'm gonna have to go through your stuff here, and I'll spam you with some comments.

Tujima

Oct 2, 2007

Today Is DEVfriend Day.
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character-unkown

Feb 21, 2007

hey i love ur literature its dark spooky but its seems so true and could teach anyone to be more careful comment me when u got new stuff

Tujima

Oct 16, 2006

Hey stranger ^^

Thank you for stopping by - drop me a note, yes? lol

ebon

Jul 16, 2006

no respect for those who have helped you in the past and i walk alone to the future as it has always been.......

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Mar 20, 2006

Hey Baker, don't know if you check this anymore, but this is my new account. Check it out sometime if you ever get a chance...

YumeNezumi

Dec 18, 2005

Thanks for the fave on Chains, I'll have to look through your gallery when I get a chance! (Right now I'm having to catch up on over a hundred messages. x.x) Always nice to get a visit from a fellow writer. ^.~